LONG ROAD AHEAD OF ME
by STACIA
(NEW JERSEY)
I been through a lot in my life but the WORST was when I got hurt at work and after that my life went down hill.. I was not able to do the stuff I used to do and the medical part there was not the help that I thought I would of gotten....
I am now down a road where I have to deal with something for the rest of my life..I am not able to work I am limited on walking and standing I thought it was stress but when my eyes got opened the day when I wanted to END MY LIFE... I knew there was something more going on. I got scared to think who I would be leaving behind plus GOD DOES NOT FORGIVE SOMEONE WHO GOES THAT ROUTE that is one SIN THAT IS NOT EVER FORGIVEN FOR...
I got help but still today I know I am delicate I have to be careful and watch for the signs. I am scared I have people in my life who care for me.
I don't want to disappoint them but then again I have to think about myself. I am number 1 and I am important, others come next. My health is important my life is important and those who harmed me I don't have to go home to them... I don't have to sleep with them at night I don't have to eat dinner. This list can go on and on all I have to understand is that I have to take care of myself and it is ONE DAY AT A TIME....